Underrated.

I do it all.
I work.
I learn.
I clean.
I cook.
I overextend.
It's just the way I am.

But one thing I am not is appreciated.
I work hard at everything I do, regardless of what it is. If I say I am going to do something, you can be sure that I will give 100% every single god damn time. (I'd say more but it isn't physically possible).

If I tell you I am going to do something, by God it's going to happen.

I am one of the most giving people you will ever meet. If you need at ride to a train station at 3 in the morning, I am first to volunteer. If you are drunk and need a DD for six hours and a tank of gas later need taken care of as you get sick, of course I am willing to give up my night to ensure your safety.

What does this do for me? Nothing. Do I expect anything in return? Only respect. Even if I am driving you around, I won't ask for money unless needed.

Seriously. Ask around, it's the truth.

What do I get? Nothing.

When I need something... I don't get it.

Let's use the example of me having a blow out on my way to work. I quickly text everyone in my phone... I get no response. So, I push/drive my own car to the side of the road when I quickly change my tire to a spare. (Good thing I am independent).

I immediately drive to the nearest mechanic where he tells me it will take 4-5 hours to get to my car. So again, to the phone I go. I call and text several people and the responses I get ranged from "Sorry, in class" to "Sorry busy". Obviously, the concern level is zero.

So I walk. I walk to the nearest bus station, I have no coat (left it at home because I can't use it at work) and stand in the cold waiting on the RTA. It finally comes, I get home.

Luckily, I live in a sorority house! I know I can get a ride back in a few hours so I can get my car, right? Wrong.

This is where it gets good, you see I asked people who I had stayed up late with while the got sick or got out of bed to listen to their woes or even driven them somewhere when they needed it and I figured there is no way they could say no....

Well, again my answers were "Oh, I am studying" to the classic "I have a good parking spot, I don't want to lose it." Seriously, why is ok for people to ask me odd favors and I can't even get a ride to get my car? So I call one last person, who agrees to take me. Realize, this person had 3 lab reports and two tests the next and she didn't even hesitate.

Here's the catch... She isn't even my sister. She is just a friend. She has never asked me for a favor in the entire time we have known each other.

So, of course, I vow never to do another favor.

That didn't last.

Now here I sit, scorned yet again by the great ways of being taken advantage. I will do and do and do for everyone but get nothing in return.

How ironic? No, how typical is more like it.

All I want is to be respected, I guess that will never happen because respect is underrated.


Why do something nice for someone when you can take, take, take, take and never have to give one ounce in return?

To say that I am done and it won't happen again would be a lie. I am far to trusting/nice of a person to let that occur...

So instead I will sit and here and realize that there is no good in mankind but there are just a few good people strewn throughout all the selfish... I will make it my goal to find those people.

It might be easier for me to find Waldo or Carmen Sandiego at this point...